Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Aliens the movie..or Aliens the reality?

Alright, again my wild nights (not physically...dumb dumb, but mentally..for serious.) leave me dead tired for the next day. The dream was somewhat of a nightmare, but one that could manifest hope and victory if the dreamer had faith and a strong spirit.
I'm sure you have all seen the movie Aliens. What I was running from looked very similar to these creatures. The only differences were that they weren't as large. They were more human sized; some slightly bigger while others slightly smaller than that of the average sized human. Also they didn't have that long protruding piece that extruded from the back of their cranium. What also made them more unique, was that they were shape shifters. They either looked like humans and were able to shape shift into the alien form, or the other way around. Maybe they were more agile in this form? Or maybe it was used as a shock factor to cause great amounts of fear in their enemies to throw them off guard? Who knows. Anyways, what I remember is being with a group of people. I felt as if I was a mercenary, or part of some armed forces that were top secret and unknown to the public.
The mission was to go to the warehouse or their hideout to find them. It looked like a run down warehouse, possibly a storage house that had been abandoned out in some jungle for who knows how long. I simply remembered walking in there, eyes peeled and ready to take evasive action. We had headsets, and I could remember communicating back and forth confirming location and visuals of what I was seeing in front of me. At first, nothing. Then all of a sudden I start hearing gunfire. What was broad casted to my ears were nothing but loud shrieks, gun fire, and request for back up. I immediately tried to run to the rendezvous point but was unable to. We all had been ambushed. At that point it was every man for himself. Those who had nearby comrades took the luxury of helping each other out to get to safety. I remember using ropes and anything I could to kill the aliens and dodge their killing intent. I didn't know it at first, but what I could make out to be the leader, was currently in his human form giving out orders. He appeared to be a middle aged man around the age of 35. He had dirty blond hair, kinda messy, and looked like he was losing hair at the corners of his forehead giving him a noticeable widows peak. During my escape, one of them approached me from my blind spot. I noticed the alien a bit late and thought it was the end of me. Unexpectedly, the alien's face changed to that of a women. She begged me for my help and asked me to save her. I didn't know what to do. I then glanced over at the leader guy and when he saw her, him and the rest of his members near him shape shifted and began to pursue us. I noticed this and at the same time, I also noticed that the female alien was also injured. So I carried her, and with a stronger sense of having to protect her, I rose to the challenge and fought with all of my soul and spirit. Luckily, I had guns.
Fortunately through my hard running with her on my back, I managed to escape. Not quite sure, unless I had killed all the pursuing aliens, somehow I managed to escape from them. I ran into an entrance that appeared to look like I was running into a cave, but I could see an opening at the other side. I proceeded to run through it and rested at the end. After we came to a stop, I sat her down. The environment appeared to be on top of a cliff. Directly opposite the cliff was a really huge water fall that was probably only a hundred meters away. It was really loud. What happened next was the female alien completely shape shifted back into her human form. She didn't look all that well though. Completely naked, and also looking pregnant, she proceeded to explain to me what was happening. She informed me that they were looking for her and wanted to take her back. As she told me, it appeared that her ability to transform was weakening. Not sure why I concluded this, but the color of her veins that coursed through her body appeared greenish black transitioning into black at certain parts of her body. This part is actually quite grotesque, so if you don't want to read this skip to the next paragraph. She then sat part way up and said they had injected something into her birth canal. She asked if I could help her remove it. I was very timid, not because I was fearful of seeing a womens private part, but shocked because the region looked bruised and bloodied up. I helped her to remove it, and whatever it was I am not able to explain. It was some kind of weird electronic device that seemed to be alive. The machine had lodged itself in there in a parasitic type of way. Removing it caused her great pain and left fatal wounds that I was incapable of healing.
Strangely enough I realized that I wasn't the only one there anymore. I women at some point, oblivious to my knowledge, had appeared to assist in what was going on. For some odd reason I was thinking 'mother' but she looked and spoke nothing like her. I guess the whole time while I was helping her, the women was assisting by supporting the aliens head trying to keep her comfortable. On the opposite end, sitting closer to the rocky terrain wall was a child that resembled my brother, clenching a pillow as if he were going to spend the night there.
Realizing that the alien could bleed to death, I began to search for medical assistance. All I could think of was finding a way to take her to the hospital. She wasn't in her alien form, so it must have sounded logical. At this point, I began to search for help. Next to the cave exit that we had come out of was another path that lead somewhere. I decided to run up the trail and in doing so, I found a house. I think it was a cabin but not entirely sure. In the cabin, I found a young women around the age of 22 or 23. She was thin, decent looking, with black wavy hair. I don't know why, but she took a strong liking to me. I almost got side tracked because some how she had convinced me into giving her a back rub, and I couldn't help feeling that she was trying to get me into a position to where I would seduce her. I finally realized this and snapped back into the situation I was in and told her I couldn't do this or maybe I just walked away. At this moment, I think I ran into somebody with a truck and told him where I needed to go. I thought he resembled a friend of mine, but the vision of him isn't that clear. We drove down a gravel path, and as he was speeding I somehow believed that he was going the wrong way. There was an intersection he was suppose to turn on but he kept on going straight. I have no idea how I knew he was going the wrong way, but I'm sure that it was. So I jumped out of the car, skidded to a stop and ran back towards the house where the black haired girl was. As I approached the house, I knocked on the back door. It turned out that she had a younger sister, probably around 18-20. I think her hair was reddish brown. The door she let me in led to her bedroom and I could tell either her boyfriend or lover was still asleep in her bed. She then showed me the way to her sister's room. When I got to her room, there was nobody there. So the younger sister said she was probably outside. So I proceeded to their backyard. The yard was quite large. It looked almost like a forest except the trees were well spaced apart. As I scanned the area, I noticed that there were three different beds in different locations. They appeared to be quite a ways apart but formed somewhat of a triangle. On the bed directly in front of me, were the two individuals and the alien. The bed that formed the peak of the triangle was empty and the last bed was occupied by the older sister. It was as if she was waiting for me. Then the younger sister proceeded to head towards her older sister and laid down beside her. They continued to stare at me as if they were waiting for me to join them. It was pretty eerie because I didn't know what they wanted. Maybe they did want me to join them? Or perhaps they wanted me to go and get on the unoccupied bed? Who knows but that was where my dream ended. Yet another mystery, but that's it for today, or should I say tonight! Hopefully I'll get some good sleep tonight.

Muy interesante....

Alright tonight is going to be a reflection mainly upon two dreams. I would think that they are totally unrelated but who knows, maybe there is something related. We'll let the future decide.
Anyways, yesterday after I had written about the dream I had had, I proceeded with my daily task to try and get back on schedule with my living regiment. So I strayed out of bed at the early morning or 7:30 to prepare myself a juice blend of carrots, beets, and a clove of garlic; of which research has told me to add spinach, celery, and cucumber to further increase the affects of the quest for a healthy body. After consuming that blend of nutritional sustenance, I proceeded then with a protein shake consisting of roughly 34 grams of protein and 4 carbohydrates. Then I watched a few episodes of some cartoon and let my stomach digest for a couple of hours. After that I scrambled 5 eggs and prepared some rice and had my breakfast. Now it was time for homework. As you know me, my motivation this quarter has plummeted so I went to my bedroom and practiced piano for awhile. I guess the melody I was playing made me feel a bit tired so I decided to lay down for a bit and ponder how I was going to operate myself for the rest of the day. Unfortunately, I fell asleep. On top of that I waited too long to write what would have been much clearer if I would have written it then when I had awoken. So now I can only write what I remember.
The dream was something along the lines of me protecting someone. Again it was a female. A child in the age of her teens, and it seemed as if I was simply there to be her body guard while she went around living her life. What I can only remember now is a brief stroll through a grassy plain, trailing a few feet behind her and her female companion. It sounded as if they were discussing things that they had learned, or possibly stuff about who they had liked in class. She was dressed in more modern clothing, while her friend was in clothing that appeared to be of nobility, something that most commoners are too poor to wear. I was moderately armored in some type of armor that seemed to fit me tight and snug. Nothing that was too heavy or bulky that would inhibit my movement. On my back I carried a rather large sword. A little lost as to what was going on, I just listened. I remember breathing the air and smelling the grass. All far too fresh to exist in this current world. My mind wants to tell me that I remember bits and pieces of battle confrontations that happened after the peaceful incident, but I'm not too positive. I just can't remember in detail what had happened after that. But one thing for sure, was that I was hired or told to protect the girl in modern clothing, and not the one dressed like a princess. The next thing I remember was either coming back to consciousness, or dreaming about coming back to consciousness, feeling as if someone was laying in bed with me. I didn't dare open my eyes out of fear. She was laying on the other side of my queen sized bed with her right arm stretched out towards me. I could feel her hand resting on my shoulder, since I was laying on my side. It felt as if my soul knew she was there, but my physicality didn't want to be deceived. Then it was as if she knew I was awake. While my eyes were still closed, she used my shoulder as leverage and I could feel her get up, step over me, and exit my room. The instant this happened, my eyes were wide open and sat up scanning the room. No one, obviously, was in site and I proceeded to the door to ensure that it was still locked.
Again, just another wild dream. It felt as if a soul had wandered from some point in time, some place in space, or some phenomenon in dimension to find someone it once knew. My interpretation of whatever took place; I can only explain, that through my unconsciousness she was able to show me that I had lived somewhere else before. Pretty crazy, but in this world, I conclude in the belief of all things being possible.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

No sense at all.

I'm rather confused as to why I dreamed what I did last night. Because it seems to be completely unrelated to what I did during the day.
So I've made arrangements with my friend Chatree to head over to another friends house for barbecue. It was a friend that I've known of through school and haven't really hung out with or even known very well due to class scheduling and other predicaments that conflicted with our daily events. Anyways his name is Todd and he's married to his wife Ruhi. So around two in the afternoon Chatree and I depart to Chandler to enjoy a nice evening of barbecue, swimming, and just hanging out and conversing. After a successful evening and everyone nearing their fatigue, Chatree and I decide to head back home around ten at night.
Feeling quite tired, I checked my Myspace, shower, consume a protein shake, and head to bed.
Here's where the fun begins.
As a drift off to sleep, I remember having three dreams. Very brief dreams because it seems that every single time something serious is about to happen, it wakes me up.
Disregarding those three dreams, since my memory of them isn't clear, the only dream I remember was another one dealing with a unity between a different group of friends. The dream took place at night at what I believe was to be My friend Ben's house. I don't know what the occasion was but there were several people there of whom I knew, didn't know, and have seen around either school or at other group activities. All I remember is for some odd reason a select portion of my clothing was at his house. I'd have to say at least thirty different articles of clothing mixed between shirts and pants. The only other clear face I remember is Aaron, a good friend of mine and Ben's. The reasoning to why Aaron was there was because I had heard word that he was moving in with Ben and Alisha. At this point everything seems to be normal but then ventures into something quite ridiculous.
Later on into the night, still consciously living in my dream world; the remembrance of roaming around the streets, to what seemed directly outside of the apartment complex, I was perusing through a variety of sofas, love, seats, and other types of furniture. At this point I realize that the location I was in, including the apartment complex, were entirely different from the apartment complex that Ben is currently living in. So now I'm not quite sure as to where I was, but part of me was certain that it was still Ben's place. As I continued to peruse, I stumbled upon a sofa that looked really old, something that you might have seen either in the 1970's or possibly the 1950's. It was very different and had muted red cushions. It's back rest was unique, made of wood, with a stylized design that had many holes in it. The sofa did not have back cushions. It resembled more of an antique that was imported from somewhere else.
Anyways, I take interest in the sofa and spend quite of bit of time inspecting it making sure it's to my liking. During this time of leisure, a guy with either his female friend or girl friend, comes out to get my attention. He resembled a caucasian man that was maybe twenty pounds over his weight, approximately 5'5" or 5'6" in height. He wore a stylized cap and had his ears gaged out with black stubs or whatever it is that you call them. The image of his girlfriend wasn't clear. He approached me looking somewhat frustrated, more bothered than calm. His immediate request was for me to give him back his clothes hangers that I had been using for my clothes. As to why I had his and not mine, confused me even more; but obviously if they were not mine so I agreed to return them without hesitation. So we headed back and my clothes were laying over the arm rest of Ben's sofa. I proceeded to remove the clothes hangers and give them to him while a bunch of people were in a circle socializing near the entrance of the door.
That was all that I remember from this dream. In my opinion it makes no sense to me. Of all things, why clothes hangers?! I don't think I've ever really considered their importance. Heheh..maybe last night I just had an epiphany of how much they mean to me...hehehe..as if. Well, off to homework!!

Monday, September 3, 2007

a tough night.

Last night wasn't something entirely unusual, but it brought back memories from high school. It started off as a typical night, a night of friends getting together to hang out and have a good time. However, things didn't turn out for the better and since I don't want to get into detail, I came home a little bit bummed out because the feeling of contradiction between opposite ends were strong so an understanding between both sides were not met. Oh well, I'm not the individual here to fix what I think is wrong, but I'm there if any one needs to be heard.
Moving along now, the dreams last night were nothing unusual. In fact is was a bit hard to remember everything in detail, maybe as a result of the frustration I had before going to bed; thus not allowing me to enter full unconsciousness. So what do I remember? I remember bits and pieces. What I remember somewhat clearly was that I, as well as a few people I know, were in line waiting for something. I can't remember clearly what it was but for some reason a ticket of some sort comes to mind. On top of that the line we were in, everyone was sitting and relaxing, socializing during the whole thing. To make matters even further confusing, is that the people I was with, including myself, were all in business attire. As if we just got out of some important event or possible our current occupations. During this whole time a female, fairly attractive; she had her good points about her but I wasn't entirely attracted to her. She had a nice, fit, athletic physique with brown hair put up into a pony tail that hung down to at least the middle of her back. I don't quite remember her facial features, but I was quite positive that I had never met this individual before in real life. Anyways, while I was conversing with my peers she seemed to have reached over to grab something on the table in front of me. At this point I realized we weren't just in a line because in front of me there were tables with snacks and possibly food on them. They looked more like tables that an Asian style family dining would take place; just high enough to where you could sit Indian style and consume food without much discomfort. So there I sat cross legged leaning back, resting my upper body weight on both of my hands positioned slightly behind me. She reached over for something brought it back and then reached over again but this time only to position herself over me and in my lap. She was sitting next to me but leaning more across my stomach/pelvic region in a position where she could still face who she was talking to and yet embrace the weight of her upper body with both her hands but on the other side of my body. Basically the exact same position I was in only she was doing it across my body. I thought it to be quite strange that she was so comfortable. She was casually dressed in a tight fit shirt (I think grey), that showed off her physique, and then the stylized jeans she wore were of the same representation. Anyways, I didn't seem to mind, although I couldn't figure out how she could be so comfortable. As the two separate conversations were taking place, mine with the peers who I was with, and hers' with whom ever she was conversing to, I gradually fell out of confusion for what was going on. It simple felt as if I just accepted her as my girlfriend or something along the lines. From there I don't remember anything else. I think I woke up and fell asleep again.
Now it was a different dream, very brief, and it basically was a direct result out of what happened last night. I just remember having fifteen dollars in my hand and I took five of it to pay back my friend Trish for I what i owed her that night. And that was the end of that dream.
So I guess that's it for today, since I am awake now and nothing else comes to mind. I wonder where tonights journey will take me.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Above and beyond reality....

This is something I should have started a long time ago...but maybe I wasn't ready yet, so now I will attempt to keep track of the dreams I can remember from night to night...if anyone stumbles upon this site on purpose or by accident please feel free to either enjoy or dislike the reality that occurs in my unconsciousness.